Ice in My Heart
Day after day I feel the pain insideme grow.
It seems like just yesterday when you loved me
but now it feels like we are seperated by a wall.
A wall taller and thicker then the ones in China and Berlin.
My once open and passionate heart is dust on the floor
from trying to scale the wall and falling on the barbed
wire you built into the concret to keep others out.
I never held back but you never opened to me
and my love was wasted on a heart of stone and iron.
I gave you my all, my everything but only got pain.
So I put on a perfect happy mask every time i saw you.
I hid every emotion from everyone around me
so nobody would know how you made me feel.
Finally after all these years I found a person to accept me
as who I really, truly am, under all the lies.
Who could see beneath the masks to my pain.
He helped me see who I was, what no one else saw.
But in the end I will be all alone.
Every night I sleep completly alone and miss what could have been.
I feel the ice growing around what is left of my heart,
weighting me down and causing me to lose myself.
I vowed never to let me feelings rule my life again
but my defenses are always broken in some way.
Maybe love is not so far out of my reach
because my heart is not solid ice.
i wrote this during a rain storm and i think that just put me in a sad mood
I understand a bit of what your'e saying with this through personal experience